The Girl Grows up Without a Home

"Ten Thousand Heartbeats of a Loser": What happened to the girl who was defined as "extra"? --- The late night after I finished reading this book, I turned off the desk lamp and sat in the dark for a long time. The city outside the window has gone to sleep, but it is still snowing in my heart. It's the snow that has covered us for seven years, it's the waiting under the old locust tree, it's the hand we finally held on that snowy night. This book is called "The Ten Thousand Heartbeats of a Loser". Who is the loser? She is a girl who was defined as "extra" at birth. Her name is Tian Duoyan - it was written incorrectly in the household registration book, it was originally "Duoyan". Superfluous and annoying. Grandma got it. This is the starting point of her destiny. A girl who was despised by the whole world started her heartbeat ten thousand times in a corner where no one could see her. --- 1. Those heartbeats are proof of living The most touching thing about this book is that it uses the image of "heartbeat" to the extreme. The first heartbeat is the silence of childhood. Under the old locust tree at the entrance of the village, her grandfather was waiting for her. Every Sunday, the rickety figure would sit under the tree, smoking a pipe and pot, and looking at the road at the entrance of the village. That was the earliest light in her life. Later, her grandpa left, and her heartbeat dropped. The second heartbeat is the boy's slight tremor. She secretly fell in love with a boy - Yu Shuheng, the boy who helped her make up lessons, handed her notes, and always appeared when she was in the most embarrassing situation. But she didn't dare to say it. She is a loser, the last one, why should she like him? The third heartbeat is the recovery of the university. She serves dishes, distributes leaflets, works as a tutor, and earns her own tuition. She fell in love and broke up because it was not suitable. She returned to her hometown and became a teacher. Her heartbeat became stronger and stronger, because she finally understood: she was not a loser, she just hadn't met the one who regarded her as the only one. The fourth heartbeat is the reunion of Xue Ye. She was rumored, suspended from her job, abandoned by her relatives, and wandered north alone. At the most desperate moment, that boy appeared. He said: "I believe you. I don't believe a word of those words. I only believe what I see with my eyes." Ten thousand heartbeats, ten thousand proofs of living. 2. Those who have not been seen Tian Duoyan is not the only person in this book. And Yu Xiaofeng. She liked Yu Shuheng for nine years. She wrote three years without sending a single letter. She sent an official announcement but was asked to delete it. Finally, she sent a text message after being drunk: "Your time is time, isn't it my time? Please, give me even a little bit of warmth..." She is not bad, she just likes him too much. I like it so much that I don't know what to do. I like it so much that I am trapped in the same place and cannot get out. There are also Shimei. Tian Duoyan's cousin, they grew up together. She was treated like a gift by men and was so thin that she lost her appearance when she escaped. She said: "Sister, people like us have to learn to be our own mothers." And Grandpa. The old man waiting for her under the locust tree at the entrance of the village, the old man who gave her the money from selling the sheep, the old man who died on the day of her college entrance examination. He didn't see his granddaughter get admitted to college, and he didn't see the red envelope given out. But his light always shines on her. These people are all people who have not been seen. They are seen in this book. --- 3. Why this book is worth reading Because it is true. It does not sell suffering, sensationalism or misery. It just puts the painful things out there one by one, allowing readers to feel them themselves. It writes about being rumored: "I was walking on campus, and people started pointing at me behind my back. When I was serving food in the cafeteria, the people in front of me looked back, took their plates and left." It wrote about being abandoned by relatives: "My grandmother beat one up. Phone call. After a long silence, it was better to leave. " It was finally believed: "I believe you. I only believe what I see with my eyes." Every word is like snow falling on my heart. It's cool and gentle, but after it melts, it's wet. Because it is warm. Not the cheap "everything will be fine" kind of warmth. It's the kind of warmth that you still choose to believe in after going through the darkest moments. It is the kind of warmth that has been hurt countless times and is still willing to reach out. On that last snowy night, he held her hand and walked in the snow. He said: "If we keep walking like this, the time will become very long. How romantic it is!" She said nothing. Just be led by him and keep walking. That road seems to have no end. But it's enough if someone is holding you. --- Author's message: "Written to every you who is not seen: you are not superfluous." This is what Tian Duoyan has proven throughout her life. She was unnecessary when she was born, but in the end she became the light in other people's lives. She was despised by the whole world, but in the end there was someone who had been waiting for her for seven years. She felt that she was not worthy of being loved, but in the end someone told her: "I believe in you." You are not unnecessary. You just haven't met the person who treats you as the only one - that person can be someone else or yourself. Believe me: This is a story that will make you cry with laughter and cry with a smile. It will remind you of yourself who has been waiting in the snow for a long time, and then tell you: Don't be afraid, someone will hold your hand.

The book is called "The Ten Thousand Heartbeats of a Loser". The author revised it several times, but I still like the original name. Who is the loser? She is a girl who was defined as "extra" at birth. Her name is Tian Duoyan - it was written incorrectly in the household registration book, it was originally "Duoyan". Superfluous and annoying. Grandma got it. This is the starting point of her destiny. A girl who was despised by the whole world started her heartbeat ten thousand times in a corner where no one could see her. --- 1. Those heartbeats are proof of living The most touching thing about this book is that it uses the image of "heartbeat" to the extreme. The first heartbeat is the silence of childhood. Under the old locust tree at the entrance of the village, her grandfather was waiting for her. Every Sunday, the rickety figure would sit under the tree, smoking a pipe and pot, and looking at the road at the entrance of the village. That was the earliest light in her life. Later, her grandpa left, and her heartbeat dropped. The second heartbeat is the boy's slight tremor. She secretly fell in love with a boy - Yu Shuheng, the boy who helped her make up lessons, handed her notes, and always appeared when she was in the most embarrassing situation. But she didn't dare to say it. She is a loser, the last one, why should she like him? The third heartbeat is the recovery of the university. She serves dishes, distributes leaflets, works as a tutor, and earns her own tuition. She fell in love and broke up because it was not suitable. She returned to her hometown and became a teacher. Her heartbeat became stronger and stronger, because she finally understood: she was not a loser, she just hadn't met the one who regarded her as the only one. The fourth heartbeat is the reunion of Xue Ye. She was rumored, suspended from her job, abandoned by her relatives, and wandered north alone. At the most desperate moment, that boy appeared. He said: "I believe you. I don't believe a word of those words. I only believe what I see with my eyes." Ten thousand heartbeats, ten thousand proofs of living. --- 2. That boy, I prefer losers This situation is the gentlest sentence in the whole book. "That boy prefers me, the good-for-nothing"--nine words, all the seven years of waiting, all the grievances, and finally the warmth that awaited. Who is that boy? It's Yu Shuheng. He has been visiting her every year since his freshman year. In the freshman year, she was handing out flyers, and he stood watching from a distance, unable to even afford a meal. In her sophomore year, she worked part-time in a shopping mall until late at night, and he took her back to the dormitory across the street. In his junior year, when he saw her with someone else, he thought she had someone to rely on and left silently. In his senior year, he looked through her QQ space and read all her texts. He felt distressed, happy, and heartbroken. He waited for her for seven years. Wait until she falls in love, wait until she breaks up, wait until she is forced to flee her hometown by rumors, wait until she finally appears in front of him. He said: "This time, I don't want to lose you again." This is not salvation. This is preference. The whole world thought she was a loser, but he didn't. It's because she doesn't think she's worth it, but he thinks it's worth it. --- 3. Those who have not been seen Tian Duoyan is not the only person in this book. And Yu Xiaofeng. She liked Yu Shuheng for nine years. She wrote three years without sending a single letter. She sent an official announcement but was asked to delete it. Finally, she sent a text message after being drunk: "Your time is time, isn't it my time? Please, give me even a little bit of warmth..." She is not bad, she just likes him too much. I like it so much that I don't know what to do. I like it so much that I am trapped in the same place and cannot get out. There are also Shimei. Tian Duoyan's cousin, they grew up together. She was treated like a gift by men and was so thin that she lost her appearance when she escaped. She said: "Sister, people like us have to learn to be our own mothers." And Grandpa. The old man waiting for her under the locust tree at the entrance of the village, the old man who gave her the money from selling the sheep, the old man who died on the day of her college entrance examination. He didn't see his granddaughter get admitted to college, and he didn't see the red envelope given out. But his light always shines on her. These people are all people who have not been seen. They are seen in this book. --- 4. Why this book is worth reading Because it is true. It does not sell suffering, sensationalism or misery. It just puts the painful things out there one by one, allowing readers to feel them themselves. It writes about being rumored: "I was walking on campus, and people started pointing at me behind my back. When I was serving food in the cafeteria, the people in front of me looked back, took their plates and left." It wrote about being abandoned by relatives: "My grandmother beat one up. Phone call. After a long silence, it was better to leave. " It was finally believed: "I believe you. I only believe what I see with my eyes." Every word is like snow falling on my heart. It's cool and gentle, but after it melts, it's wet. Because it is warm. Not the cheap "everything will be fine" kind of warmth. It's the kind of warmth that you still choose to believe in after going through the darkest moments. It is the kind of warmth that has been hurt countless times and is still willing to reach out. On that last snowy night, he held her hand and walked in the snow. He said: "If we keep walking like this, the time will become very long. How romantic it is!" She said nothing. Just be led by him and keep walking. That road seems to have no end. But it's enough if someone is holding you. --- 5. Written to everyone who is not seen The title page of this book reads: "Written to everyone who is not seen: you are not superfluous." This is what Tian Duoyan has proven throughout her life. She was unnecessary when she was born, but in the end she became the light in other people's lives. She was despised by the whole world, but in the end there was someone who had been waiting for her for seven years. She felt that she was not worthy of being loved, but in the end someone told her: "I believe in you." You are not unnecessary. You just haven't met the person who treats you as the only one - that person can be someone else or yourself. Dear: This is a story that will make you cry, laugh, and cry. It will remind you of yourself who has been waiting in the snow for a long time, and then tell you: Don't be afraid, someone will hold your hand. Dear self: Write to yourself, to the person who understands, to the person you will eventually meet. This book is what you want to leave to the world.

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