Hanging Rainbow

Being perfunctory and indifferent made me learn to talk less and not disturb. There is so much warmth in my life, I gave you everything, but you left me and you showed me how to smile at others. You never know the grievance I feel when I choose you without hesitation after listening to so many suggestions, so should everyone who is loved be aloof? The pressure of life, worldly perspective, and social reality made me at a loss what to do. You and I don't meet in front of the mountain, but we don't meet behind the mountain. Probably because no matter how much you like me, you can't buy a future. I tell myself to be happy every day, but I still feel sad. Some fates are destined to be lost, and some fates will never have good results. Do you think of a person for no reason? He once made you look forward to tomorrow, but he never appeared in your tomorrow again. I thought of a hundred reasons for you to stay, but you gave me ten thousand excuses to leave. It's not that I like to be alone, nor am I withdrawn, nor am I self-righteous, I'm just used to being alone. Everything felt like an illusion, and the only thing that was clear was the cold wind. Those things that we once thought we would never forget are forgotten by us in the process of never forgetting them. In fact, we can all be happy, but we go crazy looking for those things called sadness. All untimely encounters are regrets and heartbreaking. My world suddenly collapsed, and my heart shattered into gravel in an instant. I don't know how I struggled out of that extreme sadness and despair.