Late to Understand

This is an essay about a youthful secret love with "Xu Zhen" as the first perspective, and with the background of "Love rises with the wind, but the wind is difficult to calm down", unfolding a period of ignorant thoughts that started from the first meeting and spanned several years, from Zhou Yun's intrusion into her youth with red and swollen eyes to becoming each other's "exclusive deskmate", from the secret From the tender care to the recklessness of the young man who stood up for her, from the missed appointment before the high school entrance examination to the temptation to reunite in high school, this love hidden in jokes and "brotherly love" was ultimately trapped by the disparity in family circumstances and misplaced opportunities. In the repeated misses, it became a secret filled with regrets in the girl's six years of youth. The text is full of the unique delicacy and clumsiness of adolescence: it is the breakfast on the table, the rhinitis spray handed to me, the signature on the shirt after the graduation photo, the temptation through the screen and the secret browsing of the circle of friends, and finally the response of "I am just a passerby in your life". This is about a grand but fruitless secret love, about those heartbeats in youth when the wind blows, and about life that has to move forward after the wind stops.