Willing to Fall into the Abyss with Glory

I received a text message from the site yesterday, and my only opportunity to apply for a contract failed (laughs). When I learned that my visa application failed, I didn't feel as disappointed or depressed as I expected. Instead, I felt a lot more relaxed. How to say it. If it is approved, in order to recommend it, there will be a lot of pressure in terms of updates, quality must also be guaranteed, and we must think about writing some plot points that readers will be willing to read every day. Now that I no longer have these worries, I can let go. When I am in a bad mood, I can lie down without any burden. After all, we don't owe anyone anything. I should still have some understanding of the online writing market. The current market determines that readers like to read something interesting and something that can make people complain. Including the first chapter, you have to travel through time and get a golden finger or something. If you don't see these, you probably won't have the patience to read on. But it's better for me. The protagonist only appeared in the second chapter, and then there was no time travel or golden finger. It only wrote about very realistic and depressing things. This is very taboo in the current market environment. I originally read a novel after get off work just to relax my mind and have some fun. However, the more I read, the more depressed I became. How can I bear this? Obviously, even if this novel is approved, there is no market for it. If I had any self-knowledge, I would not need to write this novel anymore. Start a new novel and cater to the market. Since I have saved so much, it is not difficult to sign one or two copies. But I know that this is actually of no use. I once signed a novel in Xirang. When I wrote more than 100,000 words, the world view spread and there was more and more information, and I didn't know how to write it in the future. In other words, I currently don't have the ability to write long novels. Even if I pass the contract, if it reaches hundreds of thousands of words or more than 200,000 words, what should explode will eventually explode. My personality is relatively undisciplined. I am not very good at listening to what others say about me. For example, in this novel, the first chapter originally had 7,000 words. When others were reading the article live, I spent 2,000 yuan to become an admiral and jumped in line to read the article. The anchor didn't say much after reading it, just complaining about the poor writing structure. Maybe he was concerned about my face so he didn't curse. This was a year ago. In the middle of the process, I also asked a friend to read it, but he only said that my novel was not like an online novel, and there was no sharp criticism. In fact, Internet articles are not like Internet articles, which are already fatal. But I still haven't changed it. The first chapter has been revised from the original 7,000 words to 6,000 words, and the protagonist still doesn't appear. During the cross-review, I thought that this would not work, so I found an old man in the comment area of ​​station B who claimed to be a book reader for more than ten years to read my beginning. When I was in the comment area, I found that his words were sharp and he was ruthless towards all kinds of popular works. I didn't expect that he would actually take the time to read it and read more than 40,000 words. His comments were very sharp. He said that at my level, I have to read at least hundreds of mainstream online articles. Then he said that the title of my book was not good, nor was the introduction. The 40,000 words from the main text to the time of time travel could be cut off (laughing). I listened to his advice, so I sped up the first chapter and reduced it to two thousand words. Then I changed the introduction and cover, but kept the title. From here, you can see my personality. I am not a good writer who can listen to the opinions of real readers. Perhaps I write online articles not for readers, but for my own pleasure, so my own ideas are more important than readers' suggestions. However, even if I am as stubborn as the novel I wrote, there are still a few real readers reading and pursuing it. Here, I would like to express my sincere gratitude: Thank you! I have been unemployed for the past three months. When I was working, I always thought that I would save enough money and take the time to finish writing a novel. Now that I really have time, I don't know what to write. I have been thinking about whether I should find another job before the end of the year. This is my current situation. I happened to have failed to sign the contract, so I had no reason to continue lying down. Although the work pressure was very high, compared with the boring life now, it was still manageable. There should be about forty chapters left in the archive, and it will probably be almost finished. Well, that's all, there's nothing else to say.