The Inner Monologue of Cheng Shaoshang in the Brilliant Star

I am Cheng Shaoshang, my nickname is Ah Yao. In the eyes of the world, I am the cunning, eccentric, and vulgar fourth wife of the Cheng family. I am not as gentle and virtuous as everyone's lady, nor am I as clever and sensible as Xiaojiabiyu. I was abandoned by my parents since I was a child and grew up wildly under the care of my grandmother and second aunt. I learned to disguise, to calculate, and to protect my riddled heart with an invulnerable shell.