Imperfect Magician

Words heal me, and I have the wild and whimsical thoughts of my youth. My body feels warm when I look at it, and I feel like my lost childhood has been redeemed.

When I found out that no one read my novels, I was very sad, but I didn't try to explain away my emotions with words such as "Just express your thoughts," "It's not your main business anyway," or "That's how the cool writing market is." I choose to stay with my emotions and feel my desire to resonate with others, and my desire for recognition and communication with others. So after I dealt with my emotions, I slowly began to analyze the problem. In the past, I only focused on expressing what I wanted, thinking that if I achieved the so-called "good writing style" or perfect writing skills, I would be viewed by others, I even chose the most difficult platform to sign a contract with, thinking that I would come with the "best" one. But is the hardest the best? Is the word "good" really unstoppable? First of all, I should make a list to figure out what opinions and ideas I most want to express. When I become an adult, I will feed back to my family to heal the trauma, white lies like "Life is Beautiful", and connecting with others does not require "perfection". What is your favorite plot, trust-based hypnosis? Give yourself to others? Fight? Farming? Co-operative adventure? Debate? What is your favorite character? One that starts invincibly and confidently? No talent at the beginning but growing step by step? A talented start but not confident? Make a list of 123 for these. Secondly, choose a popular subject to understand, city, era, entertainment, fandom... I think you should choose fanfiction, because the settings in anime games can be copied, such as visible particles, which can be copied from Genshin Impact, lowering the threshold. After choosing a subject, you can learn how others write and imitate other people's writing rhythm and plot. At this time, you can understand the preferences and concerns of this group of target readers. In the future, you can try to avoid writing content they don't like to read, and write more about what they like to read (I started writing without even realizing this). Then, use the first three chapters to attract readers to click in, right! Just let them click in! It's not about promoting the main idea, but using the crisis plot to stimulate their emotions so that they can read on. It also throws out the character of the protagonist so that they can get involved. There is no need to use the setting to attract them in - no one will read the entire book just because I wrote a programming magic. At most, they will leave after reading one chapter. A hook with a high sense of expectation is the best way to retain people, but just retaining people does not resonate with my main theme. In fact, it is a bit boring to write it myself. So in the end, I wrote the plot based on the poisonous points and cool points that I knew before, and at the same time integrated the theme that I wanted to express the most. At this time, we definitely cannot put in all the main themes and focus on the discussion - there is nothing we can do about it! If I want more people to see it, I have to compromise between my own preferences and those of others! And I need to be aware that there will definitely be people who disagree with my views and abandon the article, and there will also be people who find that I have written what they feel and continue reading. To add, when I resonate with my own voice and the readers' voices, I may be able to work with them to complete this novel. The interactivity provided by online media is unmatched by paper media. At that time, I was the first author of my novel, and the readers were the second author. The novel must be beautiful. There must be something different and exciting. After reflecting so much, my idea about the current novel is to finish writing it. Although I made so many mistakes at the beginning, I still hope to record this imperfect work. Next, I will try to establish links with more people while expressing my own voice (learning other novel writing skills, honing my writing, controlling the rhythm, and polishing the plot). But I won't change what I've already written. Going back to revise and cut out the text are very consuming things to express your enthusiasm. I also have expectations. This novel is just cold. Next time I feel sad because of it, I will be mentally prepared to know how to deal with it and comfort myself better. By little orange

From the very immature writing and plot at the beginning, to the very dense plot later on. I've been through so many changes. Through writing novels, I have developed a heart that is not afraid of others saying something bad about me. Just say it, it doesn't matter. Um. Not perfect, but satisfying. When doing scientific research, I am also afraid that others will point out the shortcomings of my research. But now I am no longer afraid. Having shortcomings is normal. This is the part I want to learn. And people who read my paper should know that there are definitely shortcomings in my research and I am not perfect. Just try your best. I am also learning, slowly moving forward with the faint fear in my heart. This novel is a eulogy to the past me and a love poem to the future me. I put it here as a private place, and I hope it can help people who pursue perfection like me. External indicators are not everything, inner desires are salvation. May everyone find his or her own pearl.

Write slowly, don't rush, just give your first novel an ending.

At this time, I have written the Dragon War chapter to the end, and the last big chapter, the Alice chapter, has begun! My purpose of writing this novel from the beginning was to escape reality. In reality, my thesis was not progressing smoothly. There were many places where I was too obsessed with perfection, and things that I hoped to form at once were stuck. So I wanted to escape into a world of my own fantasy. It would be even better if I could be recognized by others. I could use the recognition of netizens to face the disadvantages of reality. I was so naive at the time. Now, my advisor allows me to get stuck on my thesis and helps me find problems bit by bit. Even if I escape, he encourages me to come out and continue to think about the topic with me. My scientific research is slowly getting back on track. Another purpose is to heal yourself. I had dissociation (a mental problem where the world feels unreal) and it lasted for 17 years. I wanted to know how to break it, so I arranged a similar encounter for the heroine to see how the plot would go. Through this informal "narrative therapy", I thought it could help me repair my trauma and integrate my emotions in reality. But now I feel like this projection is unhealthy, I'm just writing a novel, I can't be that person. Just write and play, don't get too involved in the drama. To heal yourself, you have to face reality and get in touch with reality. If you stay in a room and write, you will only indulge in your own problems. (There will be fewer updates in the future and more contact with reality) The last purpose is to cook for yourself. In the past, what I liked to watch was protective deception. The deceiver deceives others for the purpose of protection, and I also have a special request: the deceived person has no resentment or hostility towards the deceiver. If he must be aggressive, it must be directed at himself. Unfortunately, I couldn't find any articles on this topic, so I started writing it myself. (Conan deceiving Xiaolan counts as one, but this has not been written in the plot recently) And now, I have written enough in the last few chapters of the Dragon War Chapter, and that's it after reading it. After satisfying and surpassing my original intention, I only have a strong desire for expression. I want to finish writing the story of the four little animals. I also want to convey my thoughts to the world - don't pursue external goals, you will not be happy even if you pursue them, how to find your own goals, and how to compromise with external goals. My novel is like a forest. Many people looked at it from a distance and found it boring and did not come in. Some people come in and stop for a while, thinking that the flower is beautiful, the tree is weird, or the bird is ugly, that is their freedom - how to interpret it is up to the reader. What I can do is create this forest with my desire for expression, and then open it up. PS I found in the background that more than a hundred people have seen my forest. Thank you for clicking in and listening to my thoughts. I will insist on finishing the first book!

Sorry author, you are about to receive criticism in the comment area, I hope you don't mind. Your writing skills are generally immature and have not yet reached the level of being easy to read and engaging. I make three suggestions The first is to read online articles first, and combine reading and writing. You don't need to read the translated works of Western Fantasy. It's too far away from the online version and it's hard to learn. Just find high-quality online articles to study The second is to systematically summarize the study. From your novel, it seems that the concept of writing that most Internet writers should have has not yet been formed. There is a book called "I Want to Learn to Write Light Novels" by Guo Shen in Writer's Assistant. You can take a look. The third is to copy directly. Dismantle the book, merge the stems, and copy. This is also very effective. I will talk about the most obvious problem in the three chapters so far. First, expressiveness. Your writing is straightforward. Saying that feelings are feelings. An action is an action. Describe the atmosphere without the senses. The plot seems to be going through the motions. What are the consequences of this? There is no sense of substitution and no sense of picture. Two, rationality I don't know if you are a student majoring in accounting. I'm a programmer myself. I almost fainted when I saw if else and for. Let me change this and see if it's not that awkward —— "What are nes and elem in the ancient Elvish spellcasting system?" "Prototype nesting and rule reuse." —— Fire spell: "psyco-igni-cycla!" —— Three, plot rhythm You yourself should also know that there is a problem. I think you may have an idea, what do readers come to read in the novel? Do you think it's a plot with ups and downs? Good solid setup? In fact, plot logic does not have to be self-consistent. The key is to learn to pull emotions. The breaking point is the emotional pull through the aftertaste after shock. Buffering allows readers to release their emotions through eloquent storytelling. Take a look at your writing. Are you able to mobilize readers' emotions, empathize and even release them when they read this passage? It's too mysterious. For example, are there any memorable moments in the conversation between your protagonist and his mother? Is there any suspense? What is the level of emotional release? Is there enough preparation for the relationship between the protagonist and the boy? Does it feel inconsistent? Put yourself in Ah Wu's shoes. Do his lines and actions leave a deep impression on readers? Are there any impressions of the character? That's a lot to say, you can check it out for yourself. I will continue to read your subsequent posts and sincerely hope to see your progress. I sprayed so much in the end. Welcome to comment.

I didn't expect that I could write so well, so I just allowed myself to go on slowly, and it will be over with three more copies. Really, the metaphors are getting deeper and deeper, so deep that it doesn't even look like an online novel (it didn't look much like it at first). Over the past six months or so of writing, I have gradually come to see my own problems clearly. I don't have so many perfectionistic thoughts. If I did, I would write a dozen chapters, revise them in half a day, and then stop updating them. I am not afraid of difficulties. I am still writing while doing scientific research. Even though there are many times when I have no energy, a lot of self-blame and anxiety, I write firmly and never doubt that I will definitely finish the book! I was chatting with my mentor a few days ago, and he said that I should cherish this time now, because after work, I won't have so much free and relaxing time. I said, I knew it when I was admitted to Ph. D., Besides, doesn't it count as cherishing the novel I wrote with so many words? He laughed, and I said, not only have I known how to cherish from the beginning, but I also know how to cherish - enjoying the moment is the best way to cherish. He replied: "You are special. I have felt that way from the moment I was recruited, and now I feel even more special." I like this word, not excellent, but special. It does not compare me to a certain standard, but describes it safely and non-aggressively, without the possibility of breeding a sense of superiority. This novel is not for fame and fortune, but just to help myself at the critical moment in the future and use it as an anchor. I used to enjoy the happiness of the moment. Even if happiness sometimes slips away, it will definitely come back! Having said that, I am also sad that no one has read it. I posted the main theme of this book (allowing everything to happen, including not allowing yourself) on a post on Hongshu, and it attracted more than 3,000 likes within a week. This allowed me to see that my ideas are very much in line with the thoughts of contemporary young people who have graduated. Maybe they are too tired and don't have the time and energy to slowly extract them from a novel. Another reason is that there is no contract and no promotion. My writing style and rhythm may not be suitable here, but I don't think my writing is bad, it's much worse than what I wrote. They also have traffic. The reason is that their creative intentions are different from mine. They are not to heal themselves, but to cater to the market to make a living. I really envy people who can be seen. Maybe they are also envious of me? I can have so much time to write, write what I like, and write whenever I want. No one is urging me and I don't have to worry about my livelihood. Every time you write, don't worry too much about writing skills, but ask yourself whether this is what I like to read. That's okay, that's okay, just care if you care, feel sad if you're sad, writing while crying is also writing, writing with a smile is still writing. After I finished writing, every line of words has my smile and tears. Isn't it great? An imperfect and different new author has carved out a private space in the complicated torrent of information. Like... The Queen Alexander birdwing butterfly of Papua New Guinea, dancing high in the forest, you can only see it if you look up. The idea of ​​​​scientific research stories and fictional stories are the same. They arouse expectations, either foreshadowing crisis or arousing curiosity. I don't feel that the six months of writing time have been of any technical help to scientific research. I hope I won't feel like I'm wasting time in the future (Who invented the word "waste of time"? This standard of waste is objectively difficult to define!) PS I am male, majoring in ecological remote sensing, with a Ph. D.

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