Zhao Jinze, I Can Only Love You for Ten Years

I have liked Zhao Jinze for ten years, but he will not look at me twice. Secret love is like a knife sharpening people's hearts, and their emotions will change with him. I am willing to be a little transparent and like him silently, appearing when he needs it and disappearing when he doesn't. But he said, "I want to marry you." Okay... But... I'm dead.