Duckweed Nightmare

I was born in a family that favored boys over girls. I was forced to marry a fool. I ran away after all the hardships and wandered like a duckweed for twelve years. I thought I finally left such a family, found someone I liked, and took that step. But the nightmare came back again, and when I couldn't try again, my lover became a murderer for me. Where does the future go?