Those Days When I Was in My Hometown

I have been with my mother for 35 years, and I know all her joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and I have also witnessed her unknown struggles and sadness. I often wonder: How should people spend their lives? Throughout her life, my mother never gave up her hard work and struggle, but she still seemed to have not escaped the trick of fate. If she had been more decisive and not married her father, would the current situation be better? If she could be more cruel and leave us behind, maybe she would live a better life than now. If... But are there so many chances to come back again in life?