The Villainess

It doesn't matter if life has ups and downs, it doesn't matter if I die and travel through time, but I can only be me. But there is an inpass system that always tries to bind me to the protagonist it sets, and for this reason, it allows me to experience a life that is not mine in the first place. I don't understand, if a good person like me keeps suffering, then who will enjoy the joy and hardship that I should have received. If life is not always bitter before sweet, then I might as well be sweet all the time, and give all the bitterness to those who make me suffer. The system settings are driving me crazy, that's okay, I can update the system myself. Whoever forces me, I abandon. If it were me, then I would also destroy myself.