Flowers Fall and Wait for Flowers to Bloom

Since I met you, my freedom, rationality, pride, and self-esteem have all disappeared. I am so confused and lonely that I can't breathe. I want to find you and tell you my depression, my sadness, and my retention. But when the words come to my mouth, they feel stuck in my throat. I can only say best wishes to you. I may be really crazy. Reason and sensibility are fighting madly in my mind. When sensibility takes over the reason over and over again, no, I have to come out with the last bit of rational strength. I have to come out...