Day by Day, Thinking About Things

Emotions disappear just as quickly as they come. If someone is really willing to provide me with a plane ticket and a cash transfer of 1,000 yuan, I am really willing to change my coordinates and appear in front of this person within 12 hours. Depression is actually really scary, and it's actually quite easy to change. My emotions are like an active volcano and may explode at any time. The medication and psychological counseling the psychiatrist gave me were like the lava flowing during a volcanic eruption. Lava is an indispensable substance in a volcanic eruption, and the drugs the doctor prescribed for me were also one of the most important elements indispensable for my survival. In addition, I am alive, perhaps only because I have experienced too much torture between life and death. I don't know how long I can live. All I know is that I live just to live, whether I am happy or sad. Yesterday, today, or tomorrow, I don't seem to care that much. However, I care deeply about the past, present and future. At one time, I thought that the past would eventually pass, but now it seems that unless it is Po Meng's soup or some kind of accident that causes me to lose my memory, I will always live with this painful memory. To be honest, if someone is really willing to pay a lot for me at this moment, I will most likely leave behind all this seemingly extremely happy life that has been built up by countless days and nights of hard work and blood and tears without hesitation, and then go to people and places I am unfamiliar with, cry bitterly, and move on with my life.