Weight of a Feather

Darkness enveloped my world before I met you. If I met you first, would everything be different? Unfortunately, there is no word "if". If there is an "if", I will definitely not live such a life. Tears are too bitter and I don't want to try every moment. However, life is like this. Xiao Cheng, the lamp you lit for me is really beautiful, but I had to put it out with my own hands...