Long Time No See, Dear

When I was in junior high school, I tried to talk to myself for the first time. I wrote the content in a notebook and hid it tightly, but then I gave up. The second time was in high school. I tried to confess my true feelings to myself but gave up. The third time is now. I don't know if I will give up and just write essays. I hope I won't give up even if it is intermittent.