The Legend of Sai'er, a Female General

She is the "Buddha Mother" believed by the people and a very favored concubine in the palace; he is the prince who captures the hearts of the people and the god of war who dominates the battlefield; the flowers are blooming when he first sees them, and he hides in the mountains and rivers again. The desert in the north is desolate, and there is a person in my heart, or it may be just a phantom. It carries about as much weight as the past and is as light as a feather. Now that I am no longer young, if I had learned to keep it earlier, I would have stood hand in hand with you at this time. In the past, there was someone to miss in my heart. I think there is no greater sorrow than a heart that does not die, but everyone says that there is no greater sorrow than a heart that does not die. I believe in the former. Only the sand in the palm of the hand and the lamp in front of the tent, the wasted years and the gentle people can wake me up. Maybe that person is still alive and living in my heart, but I still can't completely forget him, and how can I be as calm as usual? Maybe one day, I will say that I miss you so much, but I don't know your name.