I've Been Waiting for You for Many Ten Years

He said that he had been looking for me for ten years. He said that he had lived lifeless for ten years, like a zombie. He said that he had been waiting for me for ten years. I thought all this was true and my heart was happy. But when I saw his wife appear, I realized that I was just a persistence that he could not get. At this moment, my heart was as gray as ashes, and I had shed three thousand worries. From now on, I would always be with the Ancient Buddha of Qingdeng. In the following decades, he was unstoppable and came to the nunnery to find me regardless of rain or shine, but I never had any trouble. In two years, he never came to the nunnery. I thought he had finally given up, but I was not disappointed in my heart. I thought I had finally let go. His wife came to the nunnery and told me that he hoped to see me for the last time. Monks do not care about life and death. But the master told me that since I had let go, why not fulfill the regrets of the dying person. I followed his wife down the mountain. His face was sallow and thin, and his eyes were rolling. I finally believed that this man who had been entangled with me for half my life was finally leaving. He took my hand and said: The most frustrating thing in my life is that I never really understood you. The most incompetent thing in my life is that I never protected you properly, even the smallest things. The most luxurious thing in my life is to spend most of my time waiting for you. The most wrong decision in my life was to let you go. Even if I had persisted a little longer, maybe everything would have been different. The happiest thing in my life is that you kept urging me to go home in the middle of the night, kept on the phone, lay on my chest, forced me to hold your little hand, forced me to be that black pig, and told me in my ear that you wanted to lie in my arms like a little bird.