No Branches to Rely On

Boyhood is like a green fruit, mixed with bitterness and astringency. Youth is like green tea, sharing weal and woe. The middle age is like mugwort, prosperous. At the age of five, Shen Ai started to remember. At that time, her only wish was to eat a few breads and bananas. At the age of fifteen, Shen Ai is getting older, and she has more expectations in her heart. She hopes that her life will be easier and her parents will be gentler. She hopes that she can walk in the sunshine without shrinking and hiding in a corner. She hopes that her parents will give her some attention while loving her younger brother... At the age of twenty-five, Shen Ai hopes to escape from her original family, find a close person who loves each other, and gives her a lot of love so that she will not be left without a branch to rely on. At the age of thirty-five, Shen Ai finally no longer had to look for anything, and had a place of refuge. Everyone aspires to be tall, rich, handsome, white and beautiful, but there are only a few who are favored by heaven. More ordinary people, without good family background, appearance, or ability, must carry forward their burdens. Especially girls, when they come to this world, no matter what they do, it seems that they are destined to have a harder journey. There is no protagonist, no savior-like male god. A long life, slowly awakening, growing, and transforming bit by bit. Fall down, get up, grit your teeth and refuse to admit defeat. Facing the turbulent reality, how can the obsession from the bottom of my heart be enough? How can an ordinary woman find a way out? After reading this article, maybe you can find the answer. With mediocre qualifications, I felt inferior and resentful, and gradually realized that hard work was the only way out. Life is difficult, I have been sad and fearful, but after recognizing the truth, I still choose to love. Love every day, with flowers blooming in your heart, standing still, and time will not change. ——Shen Ai