Ethereal Existence

What you want in life is nothing more than the happiness in front of you, to be with your sweetheart for the rest of your life, but you don't want to gradually become one of the few people in the world - a person with super powers. If the price of having ability is that feelings become limited and difficult to regenerate, the moment the feelings dry up is the moment you lose your mind. Would you still want to have abilities? If having abilities is not followed by being relied on and trusted, but by being isolated, excluded, and hurt, even the moment you have abilities becomes a time bomb that is counting down, and when the time ends, you will uncontrollably hurt the people you once cared about. How should I treat myself?