Who Touched My Past and Present Lives?

To pursue you for six lifetimes, I gave up thousands of miles of mountains and rivers for you, and bore the world's infamy for you. I gave up myself for you, I was willing to be your pawn and stepping stone, I died for you again and again, but in the end you abandoned me life after life. In this life, I want to live for myself and choose to forget you. But reality is always cruel. The more you want to escape, the more it forces you to face it. In this life, I thought I could truly get your love, but I found out that everything was a conspiracy. What role did you play in this conspiracy? I was born different. I can see two worlds. Some people call this the eye of the sky. When I was a child, my mother knew about it and took me to recognize a great monk as my master. I thought everything would get better, but who knew that all this was just the beginning of a nightmare. And I also paid the price of this nightmare with incomparable labor pains.