How Far Forever

I often feel that I am living in an illusory dream, as if everything around me is not real and has nothing to do with me. It seems that I am not me, and I don't know who I am or whether I really exist. I really wanted to try jumping off the building right away, but my subconscious told me that I would definitely not be in pain or die. Because I'm so unreal. Have you ever had this feeling? Meng Hu said: Xiaoyu, even if I am not the one who stays with you in the end, I will do my best to add happiness to your life. Ying Ran said: Xiaoyu, even if I know that you are not in love with me, as long as I keep you by my side and watch you smile and cry every day, I will feel happy. I believe that as long as I work hard, one day you will only have me in your heart. Am I wrong? Meng Hu, I always thought that if the person beside me was not you, happiness would be so far away. But in the end, the person beside me is you. Why is happiness still so far away? Is there really forever? If so, how far is it? Of course, on the road to happiness, we still give up halfway; Meng Hu, on the road to eternity, we part ways after all.