The Days We Walked Together Holding Hands

Although the so-called memories can make people happy, sometimes they can also make people lonely. What's the point of letting the spiritual thoughts still hold the lonely time that has passed? - I have asked myself more than once - but I also know deeply that I am not willing to forget it all. Because of the efforts I made and the promises I made, I am still lingering on something and looking forward to something... And this part that cannot be forgotten has become the source of my pain for more than ten years. I, a person with a cheerful personality, like to tease my female classmates, and I am hated by the girls because of this. However, behind my cheerful appearance, there is a deep feeling for a girl who is my first love in my heart. Unfortunately, we are not destined to be together, and I have been living alone in lovesickness. Later, I met Liu Wanzi at the train station, and thus began the first real love in my life. However, when we fell in love and decided to change each other, Liu Wanzi died in a car accident while rescuing others. Since then, I have been living in sadness, and my heart has slowly closed. The person who once ended my loneliness has made me even more lonely... One day on May Day, when I was walking on the street, looking for a hug that could soothe my soul, I met the person I liked at first. However, she was already someone else's girlfriend. As I looked at her retreating back, my thoughts were pulled back to the past. I was thinking why fate was playing tricks on me like this. If I couldn't get the one I loved, why should I take away the one who loved me. After some mental struggle, I finally made a decision: drop out of school. When I stood at the door of Tongji University, looking at the place where Liu Wanzi and I once dreamed, I felt an indescribable pain in my heart. Later I returned to Shandong. One day when I was walking on the street in Jinan, I met Hu Mengxia, my high school classmate. She was also a person hurt by love, but I didn't know at the time that her hurt came from me. After a year and a half of getting along, because of Hu Mengxia's concern for me, my closed heart gradually opened up, and my soul also found its own habitat. However, just when I was full of joy and looking forward to our beautiful life, Hu Mengxia unfortunately got leukemia. In the end, my heart was broken again and suffered deeper damage... People who appear cheerful on the outside are sometimes lonely inside. Why are the days we walked hand in hand always stuck in the past helplessly...