Dazzle Purple Golden Year

What I once firmly believed in, what I believed in so persistently, what I always believed in, was actually nothing, nothing... I suddenly realized that I was very stupid, extremely stupid. I swear, I laughed so much that I cried tears of laughter. Laughing at me for being so stupid. I keep looking forward to being disappointed, expecting again, and being disappointed again... The happiness and romance that a girl should have in her blooming years all disappear in an instant, turning into disappointment and indifference to life; when we meet again, will the beauty of the past still be there? Is our "bet" a win-win or a lose-lose? At least, I want to win. My withered flowers bloom again only for you.