Spend Time Passing Away

The words are still in my ears, but things have changed. The beautiful words of love that H said to me seem to still be in my ears, but today we are no longer a pair of intimate lovers. Looking at the things she gave me and the paper cranes she folded for me, everything seems like it happened yesterday. Her voice, face, and smile appeared before my eyes again, as if she were by my side. We can still be friends. I can't believe when my spirit became so good. I read the following passage in a book. If you and your ex-girlfriend can be friends, then you have to ask yourself: Why? If you are still friends after breaking up, then there are only two possibilities: you were just playing for fun at the beginning and did not show your true feelings to each other; or: there must be someone who is silently giving without any regrets. I only know that I have given everything to her, all my feelings. There is only one explanation for why she and I can still be friends after we break up. I love her so much that I can't bear to lose her completely. As long as I can still think of her and make a phone call to her, I will have no regrets. If you love someone to the extreme, you will lose your self-esteem. I think I no longer have the self-esteem of a man in front of her. I put down all my airs and tried my best to win her back, but I couldn't. No one can bear this kind of blow. You might as well imagine that when you use your self-esteem as a bargaining chip and lose everything in one round, will you be able to bear it? I was truly shattered, my heart, my feelings, my self-esteem.