Old Lover

Many years later, I still often wake up in the middle of the night, not knowing whether I am dreaming or not. A dream comes up again and again, sometimes I laugh, sometimes I cry; sometimes I wake up and just look out the window, sometimes I am so scared that I hug the person next to my pillow tighter and tighter. The dream has never changed, it is like a movie that plays on a loop. I watched it with various postures and moods, but I still can't understand it until now. Later I went to see a doctor and found out that I had insomnia and lots of dreams. Gradually, I realized that the medicine I took one by one would not be effective. It was only because I had left too many unforgettable memories in my youth. It turns out that every startling glance leaves traces, which are euphemistically called "memories". "If I leave you, I will die." This is the most beautiful dream I have ever had about you.