Phoenix Returns to Nest

In the changing time and space, in this distant and vague era, I thought that my life would be as quiet as the water in the abyss, as calm as the waves. But why is it you, the monarch who rules all peoples, who holds my hand? Your smile bathes in the spring breeze, ripples a pool of spring water, and refracts the bright sunshine layer by layer into the depths of my heart. I also smile, but I don't believe in the eternity of your promise, because I can't see the purity and clarity I want: if I want to gain, I want to get pure; if I lose, I want to lose everything. There is no need to be perfunctory or forceful. So please forgive me for letting go and leaving. Because I don't know, thousands of miles away, separated by time and space, will make me finally forget you; or, finally, I love you...