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My name is Zhan Xu, from Fushun, born in 1994. When I was eighteen years old, I gave up my job at a hair salon in Benxi and returned to Fushun for a promise. From that day on, I got up at four o'clock every morning, took three buses, and traveled across the city to pick up a girl from school for four years. I thought this was a lifetime, but one afternoon in September 2016, WeChat rang, with five words - "Let's break up", and four years of youth were shattered into pieces. I degenerated for a whole month, drinking, getting tattoos, and suffering from stomach bleeding. Finally, Chen Yao sent me to the hospital. I have known this girl for a long time. She is a photography assistant and has always been by my side silently. Later, I went to Beijing and slept in ATM rooms, subway stations, and park benches. I started as a mobile phone repair apprentice and worked my way up to a wholesaler. Chen Yao also came to Beijing and worked as a photographer at 798. We both made a name for ourselves in Beijing and returned to Fushun together. Now I am running a mobile phone stocking business on the 22nd floor of an office building, and she is running a photography studio on the 23rd floor. We have a golden retriever named Xia Mo, a cat, a turtle, and a fish at home. We drink tea, play chess, and read books, and we live like an old couple. But I can never forget what happened in those years. I have to walk that road every year - Health School, Shanghai Building, No. 8 Middle School Entrance... Every step is the past that cannot be returned. This book is about my life in the past ten years. It's not about success, it's not chicken soup, it's about how a person climbs out of the pit and how to learn to reconcile with himself. Northeastern people don't mince words when they speak. I speak slowly and you listen slowly.

My name is Zhan Xu, from Fushun, born in 1994. I dropped out of school at the age of 16 and picked up scissors. I stayed in a hair salon for five years. When I was twenty-one, I fell in love with a girl named Su Minghui. I got up at four in the morning and picked her up across half of the city for four years. I bet all my youth on one person, until September 2016, my dream was shattered. That was the longest autumn of my life. Stomach bleeds, tattoos, alcoholism-I was living in a state of slush. The person who pulled me out of the quagmire was a girl named Chen Yao. I have known her since I was nineteen, but I have never taken a serious look at her. I went to Beijing with only a few thousand yuan left. I slept in an ATM room, squatted in a subway station, and endured a winter night of minus 15 degrees Celsius on a park bench. Learn how to repair mobile phones in half a year, and build a company in three years. My second brother said I was a ruthless person, but I said I was not ruthless, but that I had no way out. On the day my grandma passed away in 2020, I drove the Horch all the way back to Fushun from Beijing. The sound of the engine shattered the silence of the entire highway. The second brother came from Beijing with his people, and all the prominent people in Fushun arrived. They said Zhanxu was great now, but I said I was still the young boy waiting for the first train in Qiandian. Now I am thirty-two years old and live in a villa in Huiyin Dongyue. Chen Yao was lying next to her, the golden retriever Xia Mo was lying at her feet, and the Maine Coon cat Puff occupied the cat climbing frame. The company does mobile phone wholesale, and she runs a photography studio, upstairs and downstairs. I learned to drink tea, plate skewers, write calligraphy, and raise a house full of strange animals. Chen Yao hugged me and said this life is worth it This story starts from the beginning.