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Candy, flowers, stars; hope, faith, happiness. Broken, torn, fallen; despair, collapse, silence. She stood on the spiral white stone steps, only one step away from heaven. The white door within reach was cold and moist, and God's gentle voice with a halo floated down from above: "Push it away, and you will be free, and you will be pardoned by me. I will support everything you have, and you will come to this world with a new attitude and start a beautiful life." She looked down and saw a darkness that no one could touch under the endless white stairs. Countless broken and mutilated corpses were mixed with bright red and placed messily, lifeless like dolls abandoned by the gods. "I once bowed to you in a pleading manner, murmuring incantations like a pilgrim, in an attempt to beg for your joy." "But you don't care." She retracted her hand and fell backwards. God's voice gradually disappeared along with the roar of the wind in her ears, leaving only an almost maniacal ridicule in the dark space. "It's sad... It's sad... When I was determined to embrace the abyss, did you give me salvation for such a ridiculous reason?" She closed her eyes lightly and turned around hard in the air. "No one can forgive me, not even God. I will end my sins myself." The pure white skirt is like colorless smoke, melting into the devastation. "If, I mean if..." "This miserable and hopeless sin can be forgiven..." "Can I go back to the flawless and transparent world I had before?"