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"The doctor said there was a fire in my brain that burned out the strings of reason; The goddess said that my life is full of yang, and I am destined to kill those around me. " Lin Hong, female, 38 years old, weighs 200 pounds. Her medical record is longer than her birth chart: severe obesity, high blood pressure, hypokalemia, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and the "blood avalanche" that visits her on time every month. In the world of science, she is a severely ill patient who may die suddenly at any time, relying on a handful of antipsychotics and antihypertensive drugs to maintain a shaky life. But in the world of metaphysics, she is a unique "pure yang body" - ghosts and gods dare not approach her, living people dare not bully her, and she is born to eat the food of the underworld. This year, it rained very heavily. Lin Hong discovered that whenever her body was in the most pain and her spirit was on the verge of collapse, she could see those "things that shouldn't exist." The faceless woman who knelt down in front of her on the subway; The drowned man who cried in her pipes; The dark shadow wrapped around her fat body, trying to suck out the last drop of her masculine energy... Others are afraid of ghosts, but Lin Hong is not. Because she knows that compared to human hearts and disease demons, ghosts are actually much gentler. "Since this body of flesh and blood is destined to boil, let me burn out all the darkness in this world." This is a story about "survival with illness". It is also a story about a woman who is full of diseases, caught between the yin and yang worlds, using a handful of herbs and a life chart to find a way out for herself.

In 1988, on a snowy night in the Year of the Dragon, Sun Hong was born. He was born with a pure Yang body, but was diagnosed as a "relative and lonely evil spirit" by a blind fortune teller, and became an unlucky thing in the eyes of the Sun family. In a family that favors boys over girls, she is a redundant existence. She was forced to drop out of school at the age of 15 to work. She was repeatedly deceived because of her good looks, but she still maintained the innocence in her heart that had not been erased. Blows of fate came one after another. After her marriage, she became out of shape and weighed 200 pounds. She also experienced the pain of losing her son and the death of her grandfather. The resentment in her heart completely exploded, and she darkened and awakened her psychic power. From then on, she became a spirit-traveler who shuttled between the yin and yang worlds. While suppressing the evil spirits with evil energy, she used her remaining innocence to save the lonely ghosts wandering the world, struggling to survive in a divided life. Until he met S. A. B. Chief Scavenger, a man with extreme mysophobia and an impure spirit body. He regarded her as the dirtiest filth in the world, but she became the antidote he relied on to survive. From mutual dislike to life and death dependence, the two fell in love amid the pull of filth and cleanliness. But the fate of the body of pure Yang could not be broken after all, so Xie Ci protected her from dying together with the ultimate filth, turning into a wisp of dissipated pure Yang energy. For many years after that, Sun Hong guarded the only token of the two of them and died alone in the world. She was still the two-hundred-pound spirit warrior, but she could no longer taste the taste of food, and she could no longer find that pretty girl who loved to be clean. This is a sadomasochistic story about filth and cleansing, redemption and sacrifice. It is also a story about a woman who is despised by the world and spends her life fighting off ghosts, but cannot cross herself.