"For you, I set the height of my life so high that all the pleasures in the world are lost to me." Min Min loved Sister Bai Xin so much, relied so much on her, and was so attached to her that Sister Bai Xin's "abandonment" drained her of all her energy. During the three or four years they were separated, she could only live indifferently and like a zombie. This love is too strong, too strong to be called healthy, and too strong to be called hate. But how can you blame her love? More than ten years ago, on the afternoon when Yu Min was destined to be abandoned by her parents and dependent on others, Sister Bai Xin appeared in her life so softly and silently, taking in all the grievances, helplessness, and hesitation of her gloomy youth, and gave her a home where she could settle down. From then on, for her, there was no place to call home except by Sister Bai Xin's side. Just like what is written on the cover of the novel, "I even believe that you own the entire universe", Sister Bai Xin is everything to her and her whole world.
As an older person, Lin Baixin will inevitably experience struggles, self-blame and even self-loathing when she realizes the emotional changes in Yu Min and herself when faced with a girl she half-raised who has a similar experience to herself. At the same time, the shadow of her parents' failed marriage and car accident tragedy always lingered in her heart, making her subconsciously afraid of such an intimate relationship. Sister Bai Xin couldn't push Min Min away when she noticed the signs. She wanted to maintain the existing relationship between the two, but she couldn't respond. Until Min Min crossed the final bottom line, everything that Sister Bai Xin wanted to escape had nowhere to hide. The self-protection mechanism finally made her choose to push Yu Min away. Neither of them was wrong, but they were still inevitably heading towards that divided future. Fortunately, Min Min never really wanted to leave Sister Bai Xin's side. Even though he was mixed with love and hate, he was too wronged, hurt, desperate and discouraged, but he could not really let go of her and completely refuse her redemption. Sister Bai Xin also continued to prove her sincerity in the days that followed, and some of her efforts and decisions that she had never spoken out gradually surfaced, mending the cracks in Min Min's heart. At this point, the broken mirror was finally reunited, and they could love each other seamlessly.
I never like to watch the theme of chasing a wife in the crematorium. I feel that it is really meaningless to not cherish the relationship when you have it and regret it after losing it. But "Secret Love Principle" is not the stereotype. Their split can even be said to be the result of the powerlessness of both of them after they tried their best to resist. I love the "you have to" emotion shown in the book. Maybe this is also the charm of nurturing literature. "The Secret Love Principle" was published the day before my birthday. I think it is the best birthday gift for me when I am 21 years old.