Shen Shinian's world seems to have lost some light from the beginning. Her parents are disabled, and there are only gestures and silence at home all year round. She was divorced when she was very young. The silent home all year round made him develop a timid temperament. Before she learned to act like a baby, she first learned to be sensible. But the grandma who raised her never gave her any tenderness. The TV was always locked, she couldn't take a break when she got home from school, and the light in front of her desk was kept on until late at night. "Only by studying hard can you find a way out" were the words of her grandma, which were so severe that she didn't even dare to cry.
In junior high school, this depression became the first mountain that weighed on her, and campus bullying was the second. The garbage in the desk, the comments behind her back, the sudden extension of her feet, and the harsh words "the mute child" made her live in fear every day. Nai was gentler to himself, but the more nervous he was, the worse his grades were, the scolding from grandma became more fierce, and the shadow of bullying became heavier. In the end, failure in the high school entrance examination became inevitable. He failed to pass the ordinary high school. With scars all over his body and a sense of running away from home, he followed his relatives to move to a strange city and entered the gate of a vocational high school.
Here, she met Mo Shinian, a girl who always smiled. He would stand up to protect him when she was ostracized by her classmates. He would give her the full time of copying professional class notes. He would let her stay at home when she was not attending classes. When she secretly shed tears because of her grandma's phone call, he would hand her hot milk tea and say, "Don't push yourself too hard, you are already fine." Mo Shinian appeared because of Shen Shinian. The warmth she encountered for the first time in sixteen years almost made her think that she could break free from the shackles of the past.
But the coldness of fate never dissipated. My grandma suddenly fell ill. The high medical expenses were overwhelming. My father was injured while working. The family had no income at all. Long-term depression and past trauma brought depression to the door. And the diagnosis of gastric cancer, It gave her a fatal blow. The pain of chemotherapy, the guilt for dragging down Mo Shinian, and the despair of "never getting better" finally overwhelmed her. In a quiet early morning, she jumped from the roof of the building and failed to spend all the years with Mo Shinian.
Purpose: I want everyone to love themselves well