Ye Zhiwei's childhood was once sunny. But all this came to an abrupt end after she was sent to live with her unfamiliar and estranged grandparents. "Be obedient" and "be sensible" became her rules of survival, and her lively and laughing self was deeply sealed away.
She was used to looking at people's eyes, so she put away all her edges and tried hard to act like a quiet, obedient "good kid". When she failed in the college entrance examination, she accepted it silently; when she entered a major she didn't like, she told herself "don't be picky." Her life is like a rudderless ship, drifting in the river of other people's expectations and rules.
Until he showed up. A hot and contradictory love became the only light in her gray world. She clings to him as if grasping a life-saving straw, devoting everything to this relationship, but she is also sensitive and humble. She repeatedly confirms whether she is "loved" in the other person's indifferent attitude. Every quarrel, cold war and compromise is like carving a scar of "you are not worthy" in the heart.
"In the struggle between loving and being loved, she suddenly saw clearly: what she was looking for was never a redeemer, but a complete self."
The self that had been suppressed for too long finally broke out in silence. She decided that she would no longer live to please anyone. This time, she wants to break the cocoon with her own hands. Even if the process is heart-breaking, she still wants to fly to the sky that is truly her own.
This is a growth story about loss and search, attachment and independence. It is written for everyone who has ever felt inferior, lost in love, or felt like they were not good enough.
Intention: Transformation, rebirth, autonomy