Because he felt extremely miserable, he prayed to the gods and became Qi Meng'er.
But a god's pain is always infinite, often more painful than Qi Meng'er's. He can't share the worries of his believers, and he can't change this world with frequent killings.
He is willing to fall into a dream, because everything in the dream is beyond his imagination.
Suffering from amnesia since childhood, attacked by a gentle and dedicated god
Intention: reality