In the midsummer of their second year of high school, Su Jinghan, a young man, and Xia Xuyan, a young girl, made the most ardent vows: to go to the same city for exams, to get married upon graduation, and to be each other's one and only for life.
But the gap in family background and Xia's mother's public humiliation crushed the young man's self-esteem to pieces. He was hard-spoken but soft-hearted, cutting off affection with cold words, but little did he know that this cold war had become the trigger for tragedy. On a rainy night, Xia Xuyan chased her in the rain and fell into the abyss with her car. When she woke up, she looked at Su Jinghan with empty eyes, only a cold "Who are you?"
Amnesia is the cruelest gift of fate, and it is also the most complete stripping away.
Su Jinghan did not leave. He moved into a rental house near Xia's house and became the only "night watchman", telling her about their youth day after day: the love letters she hid in her mint green notebook, the gifts she secretly bought for him while doing odd jobs, the sweetness of the bowl of instant noodles they shared, and the unspoken heartbeat under the sycamore tree.
But her response was only indifference and resistance: "Mr. Su, please stop disturbing my life."
Xia's mother even burned all her old belongings and forcibly arranged a blind date for her, so that the gentle and gentle doctor Chen Yu could become her "normal" destination after she lost her memory.
The mint green love letter full of love was treasured by her but she didn't recognize it; the engagement ring that Su Jinghan bought with his first month's salary and hid for ten years never had the chance to wear it on her hand; the unattended date at the seaside became the loneliness that Su Jinghan waited for alone on every anniversary.
He waited for eight years and waited for ten years. From a young boy to a forbearing executive, he guarded the house full of her old things, guarded the orange cat named "Yanyan", guarded an old house that had never been changed, but in the end he could not wake up her memory.
Xia Xuyan finally wore a white wedding dress, married Chen Yu, and lived a secular and fulfilling life. She didn't know that the blurry figure of the young man in her late-night dream was an image drawn by Su Jinghan's lifelong obsession; she didn't know that the inexplicable guilt in her subconscious was the last trace of affection left by the years; she didn't even know that there was a young man who spent half his life guarding a forgotten promise and died alone until he turned into ashes.
In her later years, Xia Xuyan finally found the dusty diaries and love letters among old things, and remembered everything, but only waited for the news that Su Jinghan had passed away. Holding the ring he left and the unsent letter, she cried until she fainted in front of the grave. She regretted it for the rest of her life, but could never make up for it.
This is a BE fate that begins in midsummer and ends in the cold winter.
Su Jinghan spent his whole life sticking to his promise in exchange for her lifetime of peace and forgetfulness;
Xia Xuyan regretted it for half her life, remembering that her affection for him remained unchanged throughout her life.
Those promises forgotten by the years, those unspoken loves, those obsessions sunk at the bottom of the river, have finally become deep-seated regrets that no one knows about, and are engraved into the deepest part of BE's aesthetics, so that every reader can read between the lines, the most painful miss and affection of youth.
Intention: From the young heartbeat to the experience of the world, every heartbeat and farewell in the story contains a deep thinking about emotions - not a simple entanglement of love and hate, but in the torrent of time, learning to reconcile with regrets, knowing how to cherish the present, so that every emotion will accumulate in the years, and have a heavier weight and a warmer destination.
