"I collected Song Yucheng Love Me peripherals, but they all turned out to be fake."
Xie Wanxi, who is fourteen, fifteen or six years old, is proud and broken. She is alone in the fortress built by literature, swallowing the pain of growing up that is not understood. When the self-punishing "rose" on her wrist bloomed one after another, a silent and handsome boy, Song Yucheng, unexpectedly broke into her desolate world. His polite wave, unintentional response, and only birthday invitation... All became the driftwood she clung to when she was drowning, making her mistakenly think that it was a signal of salvation.
However, the fiery confession only received a cold "oh" and his determination to turn around and get back together with his ex. For four years, Xie Wanxi was trapped in her obsession with Song Yucheng and was unable to extricate herself. She clearly knew that he was not worth it - he was indifferent, perfunctory, and even stingy with a clear rejection, leaving her to linger humbly in the name of "friend", chewing on the unresolved pain of "Are we really just friends?"
During her three years of high school, she worked hard to save herself: she regained her pride with her glorious resume at a top university, healed old wounds with friendship, and even determined to rebuild her body with sweat. She thought graduation was an opportunity to give up completely, but she was defeated when they reunited at the KTV - one look from him could easily pierce the embankment she had built so hard.
Until Yige appeared. This "perfect choice" who is equally handsome, talented but has a rich love history breaks into her life accurately with his insight into literature. The conversation by the pool and the conversation in the bookstore about "Summer Finale" and "Demian" made her feel the trembling of being understood for the first time. The resentment towards Song Yucheng seemed to have lost its footing in front of Yi Ge. The world seemed to love her, except for the person she spent her youth loving.
It was a long and awkward farewell. It was the belated reconciliation with her junior high school teacher Deng Yan that allowed her to finally embrace the self that had been rejected by the world; it was the sharp scoldings of her best friend Cheng Zi that punctured her self-deceptive dreams time and time again; it was Qiu Zeyu's twelve years of gaze that silently witnessed her sinking and struggle; it was also the dangerous temptation and soul resonance brought by Yi Ge that forced her to face the core question:
When being loved becomes an obsession, who holds the key to self-salvation?
Purpose: True self-growth and inner freedom in girlhood