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A depressed patient surrounded by loneliness × A lonely brave man who is strong and does not give in to life
[Survival Notes of a Genetically Selected Depression Patient]
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"A person who owns a cat is the happiest person."
That sentence was like pressing the replay button, echoing in my ears again and again.
Happiness?
Sure enough, such beautiful words will never appear in my life.
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I felt that my emotions seemed to be recurring, so I started to continue taking medication, but the side effects of taking the medication made me feel dizzy and numb all day long.
During the most severe period, I began to have somatization symptoms. I often maintained numbness in the same posture for a long time due to stupor. Sometimes it was accompanied by symptoms such as hand shaking, whole body twitching, and tear incontinence.
I don't know why my cervical spine started to hurt later, and my myopia increased sharply. I went to the hospital, and the doctor only said that it might be related to depression.
So I went to the psychiatrist again. When I told the doctor that I would go to the bathroom seven or eight times in an hour, she told me after examination that on top of severe depression, I also had severe anxiety.
When the doctor sister was chatting with me, she asked me what I was anxious about. In fact, at that time, my mind was like a ball of mush. Even I didn't know it. It was just that my spirit was as tense as a string.
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The pain sharpened my senses, and Wen Yu was right in front of me. I didn't care about anything else, I just wanted to hold her tightly.
This warmth is like the last driftwood of a drowning person.
I know that as long as I let go, I will really be hopeless.
In her hand was the White Rabbit candy she handed over.
It turns out that she had "seen" me so long ago.
She also chose me.
There was a buzzing sound in my ears. I must live well and live well.
It turns out,
"How could I, a rigid person like me, get into an uproar over you?"
Note: The one-sentence introduction is quoted from "The Jingzhujiao".
Lightning protection: 1. 1V1 throughout the process, double clean
2 The full text is a short story written in the first person. If you can't accept it, don't read it.
3. The article is biased towards reality as a whole, and therefore may involve some groups' incomprehension of homosexuality.
4 Non-market-oriented articles, products of stream of consciousness
5 The prototype was born many years ago, so some parts are older.
Intention: Live well and be happy every day.
