[Background] In a magical world, I was born in a rural family with bad habits, and everyone in the family is mentally ill.
[Protagonist] survives in a repressive environment, constantly understands himself and reinvents himself.
Time Anchor
Elementary school: When I was young, I was beaten from all directions. I couldn't bear it. I wandered on the edge of life and death several times, and finally resisted.
Junior high school: Desperate for parents' attention, he gambled on "being loved" by giving up his studies, but failed. I wanted to fit into "their" circle, but found that I couldn't.
High School: Campus harassment looms like a shadow, mental illness breaks out, weight loss becomes a obsession, injuries plague you, and severe trauma before the college entrance examination shatters cultural classes and sports dreams, leaving your body and mind teetering on the edge of collapse.
College: Away from family, my mind gradually returns to normal, and I continue to review and try to reinvent myself. In getting along with classmates, see your own shortcomings clearly, and then analyze, judge, and integrate changes.
Internship: Find out what you want for your future.
Graduation: I feel like the world has suddenly gone bad, the working environment is getting worse and worse, and I can't find a job. After graduation, I lived with my parents. There were constant conflicts, and my state took a turn for the worse. Mental illness swept over me. After a period of separation, my mind became clear again. After reviewing it, I found that sometimes being able to wake up is a matter of rational understanding, and falling back into it is a matter of subconscious or emotional re-digestion. To get out, awareness and emotion need to be integrated again.
In the affairs of this world, interests and dangers always accompany each other.
As long as you can survive the hardships, God will give you different gifts.
Purpose: I hope it can help you