In Lin Xiangqing's eyes, Xu Xianhe is a pistachio full of energy, and his laughter can light up the cloudy sky. In front of her sister Xu Qinghe, she is the all-powerful "Superman Sister", silently saving breakfast money just for the starlight in her sister's eyes. But no one knows that Xu Xianhe, who always likes to hide his fat figure with a large school uniform, runs in panic in the dim light of the corridor, and remains silent in front of the mirror, has a lot of harsh criticism and uneasiness in his heart.
A large part of this uneasiness comes from her mother, Zhong Hanzhi. Ms. Zhong's love is like a thorny vine, sometimes a sudden storm, smashing the piggy bank where she saves money to buy gifts for her sister for a trivial matter; sometimes when she is reading a book late at night, she silently stuffs a wad of pocket money with her eyes complicated and difficult to read. Xu Xianhe hated her for being unreasonable, but at some moments, he strangely understood that there might be clumsy worries hidden behind that harshness. This contradiction tore her apart, making "home" another place that required caution.
An accident in the corridor caused her to regard her new neighbor Lu Sheng as a "pervert". We met by chance at breakfast, and he caught me eating cold buns in embarrassment. When the class teacher made this person who had seen through all her embarrassments her deskmate in the name of "complementing each other's strengths," Xu Xianhe just wanted to disappear - especially when Lu Sheng casually picked up the pen she dropped, raised his eyebrows slightly, and said, "Class representative, why don't you say thank you?" When he accurately broke through the calm disguise she had tried so hard to maintain, the inner wall she built collapsed.
On the one hand, there is the suffocation brought by the mother in the family and the heavy "sister" responsibility, on the other hand, there is the inevitable social life in school and the deskmate who can always easily disrupt her heartbeat. Xu Xianhe stands between the shadow of low self-esteem, desire and resentment for maternal love, and confusion about self-worth. When the class teacher's warning of "Don't have evil thoughts" sounded, she discovered for the first time that the "little sun" who always worked hard to warm others, maybe... Also deserves to be truly illuminated?
This is a story about growing up clumsily amid low self-esteem and social death, finding understanding in conflicting maternal love, and unexpectedly getting closer to the truth. See how the sensitive and tough "Little Sun" stumbles to find his own light amidst the ups and downs of his family and the chaos of youth.
Intention: In the harsh soil, learn to cultivate an inch of spring for yourself. ——Every "Xu Xianhe" has the right to plant his own sunflowers in the cracks