Twenty-Eight Notes

When she was 28 years old, Fang Xiaoqing suddenly decided to start writing a diary again. ​The following are the fragmentary thoughts that exceed the copywriting: I'm probably old enough. I have been working in the second dimension for so long, and I suddenly found that I am not suitable for writing in the second dimension. (Covering face in pain As I write, I can't help but write about the heaviness of the third dimension, and then I feel stuck all the way. I don't want to be like this, so I keep writing and deleting, waiting for a more perfect way of writing in my mind. I thought, how about changing the track. As before, I write stories about students and bosses, but there is a sense of suspension no matter how I write. Suddenly I realized, ah, it turns out that I have become a very, very ordinary social animal. I sacrificed my youthful fantasies and emo back and forth in exchange for a salary of several thousand yuan to survive every month. Chatting is no longer like millet test papers and puppy love in Internet cafes. Gradually, I can't leave. Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea. When I met a young person, I started to talk about academics. I imitated my parents and started saving paper bags. But in fact, I kept putting them away. It seemed that there was no real purpose... I began to learn to be unhappy and disappointing, and unknowingly turned into the weird adult I hated the most. But something always urged me to write. I typed several stories but couldn't find a good direction, so I decided to write it. This time, I want to write a story about a very, very ordinary girl. She spent more than 20 years of her life in silence and inaction. When she was ignorant, she suddenly discovered that she would be thirty years old in two years. But my mind kept jumping between twenty and sixty. There is no boss, no different world system, and no adventures. It may succeed or fail, it may be satisfactory or flawed, and it may never have a true ending. But I hope all the little angels who read this article outside the screen can have a very happy and fulfilling life. Intention: Accept your imperfect self and move forward