I Hate Fake Wine, but I Love Gin

My name is Chaosheng Xiangyang, and I am a time traveler. I have been in the world of "Detective Conan" for 25 years. I was born in a laboratory, and at the age of 10, as the only surviving experimental subject, I was chosen by Renye Karasuma to become his adopted son, but I knew that he only regarded me as a precious guinea pig, a chess piece leading to eternal life. After that, I came to the organization's training camp and made the first friend in my life during these five years. At the age of 15, I was given the codename Campari, a very trendy spirit. I also walked out of the laboratory for the first time and saw the real world. I knew the old man wanted to use me but was afraid of me. He thought I had no emotions and was fearless so it didn't matter, so I buried myself and created a moody lunatic. One day I shot my innocent partner, and he happily sent me to Country S to guard the border. I was also very happy, being able to stay away from it all. Now I am 25 years old, with one-of-a-kind looks. On the surface, I am a popular actor and star all over the world. Secretly, I am the head of the S country organization branch, and my status is the same as Rum. I thought I could retire leisurely like this. Even if the organization failed that day, I would have killed myself at worst. This is the ending I arranged for myself, and I am quite satisfied with it. But just when I was drunk again, a phone call ruthlessly shattered my vision of a better life in the future—— [Campari, my good boy... Return to Japan immediately... The organization needs you. By the time I hung up the phone, I had already sobered up from the wine. At this moment, there was only one person in my mind - Gin, my ex-partner, my ex-boyfriend, my light, and my medicine. It's okay if I die, but how can I put him into the witness protection program before he dies? ====(My diary)==== My eight virtues [No Smoking, Live Healthy] (Rye: So, is this the reason why you put out my cigarette and smoke with peace of mind?) [Caring for colleagues and uniting as one] (Bourbon: So, is this the reason why you asked me to take a rest early and not work too hard to work three jobs by myself?) [Help others, everyone has a responsibility] (Sister Bei: So, is this the reason why you and I disappeared to help the old lady cross the road when we were on a mission?) [Uphold justice and abide by the law] (Scotland: So, is this the reason why you stick to the bottom line of not running a red light in the face of the hot pursuit of police officers?) [Praise the sun, embrace the beauty] (Kiel: So, is this the reason why you hang yourself in the sunshine in front of my house just to bask in the sun?) [Don't care about winning or losing, just do it if you don't accept it] (Vodka: So, is this the reason why you give your middle finger to a dog and grab candy from children?) [Calm down and go crazy, keep smiling] (Chianti: So, is this the reason why you videotaped me in the middle of the night and then jumped off the stairs of my house laughing in front of me?) [Put on the mask, the show begins] (Gin: So, this is the reason why you shot me, hehe.) I am a bad drinker, and I know that in the eyes of other people in the organization, I am a free-spirited, unpredictable, and reckless person, and I also know that. The psychiatrist said that I have alcohol dependence, a histrionic personality, and an antisocial personality... I just smiled and said nothing. Afterwards I blew up his clinic. Which number is this? I can't remember clearly. They are a bunch of quack doctors trying to rip off money. I know very well that I am not sick and they don't want to live anymore. ====(Highlights)==== The tall man with long silver hair was lying on the bed without any clothes. The golden chain trapped the neck of this beautiful beast, and the ball in his mouth added to the eroticism. I stood at the door with an expressionless face, staring at everything like an outsider, but everything was done by me. Facing the prey that had no ability to resist and was waiting for me to enjoy, I didn't feel any emotion in my heart, and I was even a little sad. Why? I don't know either. "Sorry." I whispered, even though I knew the person on the bed couldn't hear me. It's really embarrassing for me, a monster, to fall in love with you, but then again, our love itself was a mistake. The time, place, and people are favorable, and no one is taken advantage of. What bad luck. But I love you, so I will definitely give you the best ending. Well, come on Gin, hate me, tear me apart, I'm waiting for you—— Come and kill me. Intention: Come to the human world and see the sun