Trapped in a Cocoon

Winter rain was falling outside the thick glass window. Wu Xin held me tightly in her arms and ran out of the room crying. I smiled tiredly: "This is my home." Wu Xin cried like a child and said stubbornly: "I'll go in." Drop by drop fell on the ground, and countless bright red Hibiscus flowers bloomed. This is my first time trying it after leaving Wuxin. Failed. When a light came on, it rushed out like water, filling the steps. The sky is pattering and a light rain is falling, and the water is dripping on the eaves. In the darkness, I feel that this is the urge of my life on me. A match cuts through the darkness like lightning, and lasts longer and warmer than lightning. I mixed the cake and rolled the pills into my stomach. Wu Xin ran upstairs and the moment she unlocked the door, she kissed me tightly. "If you leave now, I'll come with you." This is my second attempt after leaving Mist Heart. Failed. Unexplainable pain burned my chest like iron. The afternoon rain happened to creep in through the cracks in the curtains. I hung on the edge of the window, quietly letting the raindrops wash my legs. If you fall from here, it will scare a lot of people, right? Quietly leaning on the window edge, I watched the city pass by and caught the cold rain that belonged to me. Wu Xin was wearing a white shirt, staring at me quietly downstairs. It was raining, but she didn't hold an umbrella. It seems that she still hasn't developed the habit of carrying an umbrella when it rains. I jumped out of the window and took my umbrella with me to catch my attachment. After leaving the center of the fog, try the third time. Failed. The strong sunlight hit my face like a slap in the face. I looked at Wu Xin hiding in the shadows and her thin body. I will definitely forget you next time. You want to be happy, but not with me, you want to be happy by yourself. Thirteen years later, I stood pale in front of Wu Xin. She was sitting quietly on the bench downstairs with a guitar on her back. I walked to her side with a bouquet of gardenias. Sitting next to me and playing and singing softly, Wu Xin slowly told those unspeakable and unforgettable thoughts. I think we should be entangled in pain, disconnected and never separated. It would be great to be entangled like this for a lifetime. When a leaf falls, it hovers on the water and creates ripples. I sighed softly and let it go. For ten years, I kept thinking about suicide and my body was covered with scars. Misty Heart is always by my side, and I don't want to destroy her, so I pretend to forget her. She saw through my ruse at a glance and stood beside me quietly, accompanying me on my mischief. I really want to love her, but I can't help it. Too many emotions, too much pain, still silent. What can I do to forget you. "Want to play a song?" Wu Xin lowered her head and asked softly. "Can I?" I stretched out my vine-covered hands and gently waved the strings, but I didn't have the strength to play a single note that belonged to me. She gently held my hand in silence, entwined it in her palm, and we clasped our hands and played our last song. She opened the door to my house and looked for me in a panic. Until she walked to the cardboard box in the corner and saw my curled up shadow. I smiled apologetically at her and said nothing. She held my hand tightly, just like before. "Forget it, stranger, and my kindness." Looking at each other in silence, we shed tears of farewell. "Will you live?" I asked softly with tears in my eyes. "Yes, I'm still looking for you." Wu Xin rubbed my hair and whispered softly: "I go every year." I was silent for a long time, then smiled and said, "I want to be quiet." I let go of her hand and hugged her tightly with the final determination: "You have to be well." Misty Heart kissed my ear and whispered, "I will look forward to the rainy day." A rain exploded on the ground, The sky has cleared up and the rain has stopped, Everyone must remember to go home. Written on June 23, 2025 Purpose: Looking for love