I Seem to Have Fallen in Love with Someone Who Doesn't Exist

She is not a "patient", she just fell in love with her ideal self. Fell in love with someone My handsome self Careless self lively self The self who loves to laugh Will cry myself hardworking self confident self brave self Dare to face your mistakes The self who dares to break the shackles of marriage I am not afraid to challenge my destiny... "What's your name?" "Solution, solution..." "Thank you?" "Jie Luo." "The spring sun is setting by the Luoshui Bridge, and the clear blue water can see Qiongsha... It sounds pretty good." "Really?" "Well, it just doesn't sound like a girl's name..." "..." "However, this name is very domineering!" Fish fish swim and swim into the belly of the whale, the whale protects you. Mom will always bless Yanbao... I never thought of portraying a perfect person, I just wrote about a girl who is timid, has low self-esteem but is smart, beautiful, and unique. Jie Luo is the only female protagonist in this book. She was born into a conflicted and violent family, and the guilt she felt towards her mother made her blame herself for all her faults. In childhood, junior high school, and even high school, she was alone. Because she is afraid of the night, she will feel that she is hypocritical. Because she has not been recognized and beaten for a long time, she will regard all the beautiful things in the night as "monsters", man-eating devils, and bees. She never knew she had persecutory delusions, and she regarded all the actions of others as insinuations about herself. Because she grew up in this environment and did not receive love, she will believe even the gentle glances or words of others to sow discord. Maybe God didn't want her to live in the dark night, so Yue Mingxi appeared. She was none other than what Jie Luo longed to be - confident, optimistic, wise, beautiful, generous, brave, rebellious, kind, unsympathetic, the ideal self. From that day on, the shadow of loneliness was illuminated, but while her life continued to get better, she uncontrollably fell in love with the non-existent self. She would dream about the two of them rubbing shoulders, trying things she had never tried before, making friends, and learning things. But suddenly one day, even on a day she didn't notice, she realized that Yue Mingxi itself did not exist, or she had discovered it from the shadow at the beginning, but she chose to believe, believe in her existence, and believe that she would get better. From beginning to end, Yue Mingxi only appeared in Jie Luo's world. Jie Luo always thought it was the change brought about by her appearance, and even refused to wake up in this grand fairy tale world. Yes, she wanted to break the rules and be with Yue Mingxi. But Yue Mingxi is a "dream" after all, and even the contact between the two was created by Jie Luo. Yue Mingxi didn't want her to fall into obsession again, so she chose to let her "kill" her. Jie Luo watched helplessly as the beautiful girl put on a wedding dress and got married in the world she saw. She had a wedding that was both beautiful and strange. After being betrayed, she would desperately yell "I'm going to kill you". Yue Mingxi used legitimate defense to break the shackles of marriage, but left the best side to her who was growing up. She sacrificed herself to let Xie Luo wake up. Jie Luo was reborn. She was no longer afraid of devils and bees, and no longer lived cautiously, but was free and at ease. Jie Luo killed himself, who was submissive and used himself to save others. When she truly became herself, she left. After Yue Mingxi left, she left behind a letter, which was a message she wrote to herself. In fact, Yue Mingxi, who only appeared in her consciousness, had already fallen in love with the strong woman, but she couldn't. After all, she was a spark created by Jie Luo in the darkness and would eventually be extinguished. Her appearance only turned the dark devil world into a fairy tale world, and Jie Luo's real growth was to find himself after walking out of the Peach Blossom Spring. Purpose: redemption