Die Alone

Yu Qinan's world is an old school uniform that has been washed white, a scar that snakes like a centipede on the back of his neck, and an inferiority complex and fear engraved in his bones. He was like a plant huddled in the shadows, breathing silently amidst the hustle and bustle of Class 7 of the Key High School. Until that beam of light named Xie Fengchi shone unexpectedly into his dark life. Xie Fengchi, President of the Student Union, the star of the "Jingxian" Archery Hall, is an impeccable and perfect presence under the spotlight - as accurate as the arrows he shoots, as cold as the snow on the mountain tops that never melts all year round. An unexpected high-scoring award made Xie Fengchi's eyes penetrate Yu Qinan's cowardly appearance and land on the astonishing talent in science that was completely inconsistent with his humble posture. This contradiction has become a difficult puzzle in Xie Fengchi's eyes, and it has also become a gravity that he cannot ignore. As a result, exceptions and preferences quietly breed. The olive branch extended by Xie Fengchi was a rare warmth in the cold world. However, for Yu Qinan, the closer the dazzling beam of light got, the more it burned his deeply buried wounds. Inferiority is a thick cocoon, sensitivity is a dense thorn. Every time Xie Fengchi came closer, he was accompanied by a tearing struggle in his heart - longing for the warmth of the light, but convinced that he was only worthy of living in dust and would eventually be burned and rejected by the light. He pushed away the light with his own hands, demeaned himself with the most hurtful words, and built a higher wall in his heart. Even with the warmth of Lin Youyou, the magnanimity of Lu Fengming, and the kindness of Wang Wei, the fortress built by friendship could not really dispel the loneliness deep in his soul. Xie Fengchi was heartbroken by his retreat and self-destruction, and tried to get close to, understand, and even illuminate the shadow that enveloped him in his own way. He saw the scars, guessed the darkness of the past, and tried to reach out to pull him out. But the abyss is too deep and the light is too far away. No matter how hard Xie Fengchi tries, no matter how secretly Yu Qinan desires in his heart, the shackles called "past" and the cage called "inferiority" are too heavy after all. Yu Qinan was like a frightened trapped animal, instinctively retreating back to the cold corner when warmth approached. He was used to walking alone in the darkness, used to looking up at the light that was out of reach in a humble posture. In the end, that beam of light, that Xie Fengchi who had tried to stay for him and make an exception for him, could not penetrate the deep-rooted ice and self-destructive abyss in his heart. Yu Qinan is a person after all. With the incurable trauma and the preference that he had not bravely accepted, he walked towards the ending he had already written in the noisy crowd called "The End of Oneness" - eternal loneliness, which was the final destination he chose for himself. Light once shined, but failed to save; love once came close, but could not reach. He was always alone. Purpose: To explore how self-destructive loneliness rooted in the abyss of trauma can become the ultimate fortress that even love and light cannot penetrate, and to reveal the tragic fate of individual souls heading for eternal loneliness in self-exile.