Gu An was reborn, the day before Lu Muchuan brought Lin Xiao back.
She was engaged to Lu Muchuan for four years, from the age of 18 to 22. From being reluctant at the beginning, she became more and more involved.
In order to win back Lu Muchuan, she acted lowly and acted ugly; she targeted Lin Xiao crazily and once walked on the edge of the law; she did not hesitate to sell her sex, just to get closer to him; she was addicted to alcohol and wanted to use chaos to numb her pain...
In the end, she was reduced to the streets, abandoned by others, and lost her former glory.
She slept in a public toilet stall, with the pungent smell of feces lingering in her nose. She tossed and turned unable to fall asleep listening to the sound of the toilet leaking. She suddenly realized that what she missed the most was not the four years she spent with Lu Muchuan day and night.
But when I was seventeen, I was in the studio in the afternoon, with the noisy chirping of cicadas, my hands stained black with charcoal and the rough lines on the drawing paper. At that time, her parents had not yet had an accident, and she had never known Lu Muchuan. A piece of charcoal pencil and a piece of drawing paper were enough for her to immerse herself in a carefree time.
She finally understood that maybe she didn't love Lu Muchuan as much as she thought.
She was just afraid of being alone. Without Lu Muchuan, she would have no relatives or friends in this world. He was like a piece of driftwood in the vast sea. Without this piece of driftwood, she could only sink in the world alone.
Once again, she vowed not to be obsessed with love anymore, and just wanted to spend her life peacefully and steadily.
Intention: Buddhist life after rebirth