Thoughts of the Night

An accidental support from a used bookstall in Yuxiang made Jiang Chen, the top student in the second provincial class, bump into Su Wannian with a pear tangle. ? He was a person who lived in the cold winter. His father's coldness and stepmother's meanness crushed the boy's heart to pieces. Only the dry towel she handed him, the brown sugar buns she secretly stuffed, and the orange-flavored fruit candies were the only glimmers of light in the dark night. ? She is a girl raised by Nuanyang in the old lane. Her parents died young. The love of her grandparents gave her a soft and tough background, but she hides the cowardice brought by her original family. She saw through the scars under his long sleeves and felt sorry for the desolation in his eyes. She hid her three-year secret love in the little sun on the problem-solving draft paper, in the crooked stitches of the scarf, and in the diary that she wrote and revised. ? The class next door looked at each other from a distance, the tacit silent sitting in the library, and the agreement to "eat glutinous rice balls in the old alley" on a snowy day became the most gentle expectations of the senior year. They all thought that they would be able to express their "love" after the college entrance examination, but they did not expect that an accident of fate would make the agreement an eternal separation. ? The blood-stained diary reveals a belated confession, and the unsent pen condenses the unfinished thoughts. Jiang Chen went to appointments in two cities alone, wearing the scarf she knitted, guarding the memories full of traces of her, and wasting away in the endless longing. ? It turns out that the most painful thing is not that we never met, but that we were clearly going in both directions, but we were just one step away from touching each other. In the end, we were left with only a life-long regret - you are the tenderness that I have hidden for three years, and you are also a regret that I cannot make up for in the rest of my life. Concept: The core concept of this novel is "a glimmer of light cannot resist fate, and silence creates eternity." It uses the delicate bond of two-way secret love as a carrier to hide deep thoughts on the original family, love and regret. It not only fits the tone of the cold tragedy, but also arouses readers' resonance with "missing out" and "cherishing". It can be broken down into three layers: 1. The glimmer of two-way redemption cannot withstand the impermanence of fate. Su Wannian's gentleness is the only light in Jiang Chen's dark world - her brown sugar buns, band-aids, and orange-flavored fruit candies are his confidence to fight against domestic violence and indifference; Jiang Chen's silent protection is the support in Su Wannian's timid world - his problem-solving draft paper, the little sun pattern, and his stability when carrying her are her courage to face the lack of her original family. They are each other's salvation, but due to an unexpected accident, all the expectations of "coming closer" came to an abrupt end. Concept: The most painful tragedy is not that it is never illuminated, but that the light is clearly grasped, only to be snatched away by fate, leaving only boundless darkness. 2. The cowardice left in the original family is the farthest distance in secret love Due to the violence and denial in his family, Jiang Chen felt inferior to being "covered with scars" and did not dare to bring darkness to the clean Su Wannian; because of the lack of her original family, Su Wannian was timid because she was "ordinary and unworthy" and did not dare to touch Jiang Chen, who was so outstanding that he was out of reach. Their secret love is not that they don't love deeply enough, but that they are trapped by the "feeling of unworthiness" engraved by their original family, and they are always one step away from saying "I like you." Concept: The trauma caused by the original family will quietly become an invisible barrier between lovers. Those unspoken loves are not cowards, but people who have been hurt. The most careful guarding of "beauty" eventually becomes the source of regret. 3. Silent love and unfulfilled promises are scars that cannot be healed for the rest of your life. Their love is hidden in the passing of each other in the early morning, the warm steamed buns on the table, and the draft paper on the windowsill. There is no grand confession, only a long-lasting tacit understanding. The appointment in the old alley after the college entrance examination, the wish to work side by side in Beijing, all the unspoken words and unfinished things have become eternal regrets with Su Wannian's death. Jiang Chen's longing became a disease, not because of pretentiousness, but because of his obsession with "unfinished things" - he went to all the appointments for her, but could never wait for the person he agreed to. Intention: Some love, silence to the extreme is eternity; some regrets, unfinished to the extreme, is a lifetime. Those unspoken confessions were not brave enough, they were the purest form of restraint in youth, but in the end they became engraved in the bones and blood, a pain that can never be repaired. The overall concept revolves around "tenderness and regret", which not only praises the delicacy and redemption of two-way secret love, but also laments the impermanence of fate and the shackles of the original family. It finally settles on "silent love is the most profound, and unfinished regret is the longest", allowing the stamina of tragedy to be hidden in the fragmented memories of daily life, and the more you read it, the more painful it becomes.