Life always likes to joke with people. We are all a touch of color in a humorous script, tempered by spontaneity.
I am a coward who loves to dream, but in real life, I have always been an empty woman.
I often feel that my head is empty. Although I was not very smart before, now I seem to have gradually lost the ability to think.
My heart is also empty, there is a emptiness there, an emptiness that cannot be explained in words.
It was like a dry well that couldn't be filled no matter how hard it was. It was like there was an impenetrable barrier separating it from itself. It was a place that even I couldn't touch.
I also can't understand myself, so I often can't reconcile with myself.
Who is controlling my life?
Obviously I know very clearly that I am alive, but I always lose myself unconsciously.
I can't find the feeling of being alive, just like the fish at the bottom of the sea who can never find the ideal ocean.
This feeling of confusion and unreality always makes me fall into doubts.
Maybe, at this time, I actually found the answer. Pain may make people sober!
But in fact, I am a woman who is very afraid of pain.
I think this is probably not a good idea.
So what should I do to save myself?
On what basis? Since reality is a dream that never reaches the end, it can never be escaped, just like a script that should never be completed by oneself!
How about continuing to indulge and continue dreaming?
It seems... Not bad...
Intention: Allow yourself to dream. What you get is not what you want, but I allow everything to happen.