A youth narrative about friendship, possession and self-awareness
Xia Yu and Mo Fan, who met in the third year of junior high school, once had the purest friendship. They talked about everything and trusted each other. However, when Mo Fan was admitted to a key high school, they used dense text messages to weave an emotional network across the campus until Mo Fan suddenly announced that he had a crush on a girl in his class during his sophomore year. This shock made Xia Yu begin to re-examine the three-year friendship between the two - when she typed "homosexual" in the late-night search box with trembling fingers, those cruel prophecies about "same-sex close friends will eventually separate" were casting fine shadows on the latitude and longitude of their fate. Worse than being abandoned by your best friend.
When Mo Fan finally proposed breaking off the relationship in the first semester of his freshman year, Xia Yu's obsession turned into entanglement, and the conflict between the two escalated. Mo Fan used decisive words to tell Xia Yu to leave, and finally led to a complete break. It wasn't until a year later that Xia Yu learned to stop interrupting, and the end of the relationship forced her to face herself: about the boundaries of emotion, the cost of possessiveness, and the pain of having to let go as she grew up.
This youth coming-of-age novel focuses on the female emotional spectrum and explores the confusion and wandering of contemporary teenagers at the interface of friendship and love from the perspective of Xia Yu. When secular prejudice and self-perception form double shackles, how do those unnamed emotions grow in distortion amidst misunderstanding and fear? This emotional anatomy experiment completed by two girls over a period of five years ultimately points to a deep question about the nature of human relationships: Are we afraid of losing each other, or are we afraid of facing our true selves?
Purpose: When secular prejudice and self-perception form double shackles, how do those unnamed emotions grow distorted in misunderstanding and fear? This emotional anatomy experiment completed by two girls over a period of five years ultimately points to a deep question about the nature of human relationships: Are we afraid of losing each other, or are we afraid of facing our true selves?