I even hated her a little bit, hated that she was so decisive, hated that she was cruel, hated that she didn't want me, hated that she really didn't come back to see me again, and I just stayed in her past, yellowed, old, and rotten.
In fact, I hate myself even more, hate that I am timid and cowardly, hate that I blame her.
Purpose: brave; grow; protect