When you realize that you have habits that you shouldn't have, it's because there is a parasitic Ta in your consciousness.
You don't need to be afraid, you just need to wait for Him to take over you, devour you, and turn you into a vessel for His eternal life.
Will you resist? You will, but it's hard.
"Memory is the grave of the soul..."
"What are you going to do?"
"I will be you, this is our original agreement..."
Purpose: Science