I, Gu Sangyue, used to be happy, but, because of the sudden occurrence of various things later, I came up with the idea that it would be better if I died. After that, I began to wonder why people should still live if they live in so much pain, instead of killing themselves and being free... Later, in high school, I met Cen Xiyan, a close friend who understood me very well. So, one day, I asked Cen Xiyan this question, and Cen Xiyan said that it was because they could not die due to various reasons. I answered her, "Isn't it because I'm afraid of death?" (This book is adapted from real life and the author's experience in reading novels. Any similarity is purely coincidental.) (Narrative order: generally chronological order, occasionally interspersed with some of my own thoughts on those things.)
Intent: Adapted into a novel based on the author's personal experience and feelings