You left Hogwarts and rested and studied at home alone.
There is no way, you can't kill him, you can't forget him, so you hate him.
When you don't know it, hate replaces love and supports you.
You get the third solution, at the cost of feeling pain all the time.
Reading tips:
1. The if line of "Love is Armor".
2. The update time is uncertain.
3. Probably, maybe, maybe, it's a crematorium for chasing wives?
4. To be added.
Purpose: Survive.